1943年，11岁的约翰尼·基亚瓦塞（Johnny Kiyawasew）在艾伯塔省北部的一家小镇医院去世，他离家乡鲟湖克里族（Sturgeon Lake Cree Nation）的亲人远隔天涯。
Johnny Kiyawasew was 11 years old when he died in a small town hospital in northern Alberta in 1943, a world away from his Sturgeon Lake Cree Nation family.
约翰尼被迫入读位于艾伯塔省加莱（Calais）的天主教圣弗朗西斯·泽维尔寄宿学校（St. Francis Xavier Residential School），此后便再也没能回家。直到几十年后，他的兄弟姐妹才得知他的遭遇。
Forced to enroll at Catholic-run St. Francis Xavier Residential School in Calais, Alta., Johnny never returned home, and it was decades before his brothers and sisters learned what happened to him. "My parents, like my dad, was never told about nothing.
“我的父母，就像我父亲，什么都没被告知。他们在没经过他同意的情况下就开具了死亡证明，”约翰尼的弟弟罗伯特·基亚瓦塞（Robert Kiyawasew）说。
They wrote a death certificate without his knowledge or nothing," said Robert Kiyawasew, Johnny's younger brother.
“这不对……教会本应该告诉父亲他已经去世了。”在经历了多年的困惑与追寻后，罗伯特·基亚瓦塞表示，他的姐姐罗珊（Roseann）在一名私家侦探的帮助下，于2013年找到了约翰尼的墓地。
"It's not right… the church should have told my dad that he had passed away." After years of unanswered questions, Robert Kiyawasew said his older sister Roseann, with the help of a private investigator, found Johnny's gravesite in 2013.
“那位看护人说：‘我确切地知道他埋在哪里，我带你们去，’”罗伯特·基亚瓦塞回忆道。
"That caretaker said, 'I know exactly where he's buried and I'll show you where,'" said Robert Kiyawasew.
根据省政府记录，约翰尼死于肺结核，去世时身处海普雷里（High Prairie）的一家医院，并被安葬在那里，距离那所寄宿学校有75公里之遥。
According to provincial records, Johnny died of pulmonary tuberculosis in a hospital in High Prairie, where he is buried, over 75 kilometres away from the residential school.
目前，鲟湖克里族与艾伯塔大学表示，他们正在进行广泛的研究，旨在揭开像约翰尼这样，包括他许多亲属在内的、进入寄宿学校后却再也没能回家的孩子们的往事。“这令人心碎”鲟湖克里族酋长谢尔顿·桑沙恩（Sheldon Sunshine）表示，研究显示，许多入读圣弗朗西斯·泽维尔寄宿学校的孩子死于肺结核和营养不良。“这不是数据，这是活生生的人，”桑沙恩说。
Now, Sturgeon Lake Cree Nation and the University of Alberta say they're undergoing extensive research to uncover the stories of children like Johnny, including many of his relatives, who went to residential school but never made it home. 'It is heartbreaking' Sheldon Sunshine, chief of Sturgeon Lake Cree Nation, said research shows many children enrolled at St. Francis Xavier died from tuberculosis and malnutrition. "It's not data, it's people," said Sunshine.
“当你看到这些名字时，你会感到悲伤。我们的族人经历了什么，因为那所学校的生活条件而丧生。这令人心碎。”罗伯特·基亚瓦塞表示，他很庆幸姐姐在去世前能够找到约翰尼的墓地。“现在只要有机会，我就会去探望他，”罗伯特·基亚瓦塞说。
"When you see the names and, you know, it's saddening, what our people went through, having perished because of the results of the living conditions in that school, having perished because of the results of the living conditions in that school. It is heartbreaking." Robert Kiyawasew said he's thankful his sister was able to track down Johnny's grave before she died. "I visit every time I have a chance now," said Robert Kiyawasew.
“看到那座孤零零的坟墓，它就矗立在荒野之中……”罗伯特·基亚瓦塞乌本人也曾是一所寄宿学校的幸存者；他说自己遭受的伤害与他的兄弟姐妹们相同——那些兄弟姐妹也曾就读于圣弗朗西斯·泽维尔学校，并且因为使用自己的语言而受到惩罚。
"To see that lonely little grave, out there all alone." A day school survivor himself, Robert Kiyawasew said he experienced harms similar to his siblings who attended St. Francis Xavier, and was punished for speaking his language.
“把我们原住民当作不存在的人来对待……这是不可接受的，”罗伯特·基亚瓦塞乌说道。
"To treat us Natives like we don't exist… no," said Robert Kiyawasew.
“我们属于自己的文化；我们的传统是我们与生俱来的权利。”经过50年的寻找，这位因纽特母亲终于在距离家乡2000公里外的地方找到了女儿的坟墓。莱蒂西亚·约翰曾在那所寄宿学校去世；她的身份直到现在才被重新确认。根据加拿大政府为回应相关诉讼而编制的《斯特金湖寄宿学校历史报告》，至少有五名儿童在1943年死于该校。
"We belong in our culture. Our heritage is our right to be like that." After 50-year search, Inuk mother finds daughter's grave 2,000 km from home Letitia John died at a residential school. Her identity was lost until now According to the Sturgeon Lake residential school narrative at the National Centre for Truth and Reconciliation (NCTR), a summary of the school's history prepared by the Government of Canada as part of its response to litigation, at least five children died at the school in 1943.
该报告引用了一份1943年的文件，其中指出：“这所学校已经破败不堪，不仅对印第安儿童的健康构成威胁，还存在火灾隐患。”报告还提到，一些学生的死亡“发生在去年冬天”，原因被认为是由于学校供暖设施糟糕、导致学生缺乏基本的生活条件（如温暖的环境）。
It quotes a 1943 document saying the school "is falling to ruin and has become a source of danger for the health of Indian children as well as a fire hazard," adding some student deaths "last winter" had been said to be due to "the lack of comfort" resulting from poor heating.
由于记录保存不善，获取相关资料极为困难。加拿大真相与和解中心（National Centre for Truth and Reconciliation, NCTR）的研究主管雷蒙德·弗罗格纳（Raymond Frogner）表示，这些寄宿学校的记录混乱不堪、相互矛盾且不可靠。
Difficulty obtaining records Raymond Frogner, senior director of research and head of archives at the National Centre for Truth and Reconciliation, said residential school records were disorganized, inconsistent and unreliable.
“这些学校由教会组织、省级政府以及联邦政府共同管理，但这些机构之间从未进行过任何沟通或协作，”弗罗格纳解释道。
"It was managed by church groups, which are private, provincial governments, federal governments, and all of these organizations never talked to each other," said Frogner.
“这就像试图拼凑一块缺失了无数碎片的拼图一样困难。”弗罗格纳指出：许多教会机构的记录已经遗失；即使还能找到，其日期信息也与省级或联邦政府的记录存在差异；即便找到了这些记录，也常常会被拒绝公开。
"It's like putting a jigsaw puzzle back together when the pieces are missing." Frogner said many church records are not available, have incorrect or different dates from provincial or federal documents, and when they are tracked down they are often withheld.
桑夏因（Sunshine）表示，斯特金湖寄宿学校的相关研究人员多次被告知：只有那些与受害者有亲属关系的人才能获得相关文件。
Sunshine said several times Sturgeon Lake researchers have been told by church officials they will only release the documents of a student to someone with family ties.
“当许多受害者都早已离世时，我们又该如何证明自己与他们有亲属关系呢？”桑夏因问道。
"How do you have family ties when a lot of them are passing away?" said Sunshine.
“这确实堵死了寻找这些信息的大门……这将限制我们找回所有失踪的孩子。”桑沙恩表示，第一民族将继续努力拼凑那些曾在圣弗朗西斯·泽维尔寄宿学校就读却再也没能回家的孩子们的故事。
"That really shuts the door on finding that information…. It's going to limit us to finding all of our children." Sunshine said the First Nation will continue to work to piece together the stories of children who were enrolled at St. Francis Xavier and never came home.
“如果我们不知道这些孩子在哪里，又怎能让一些家庭获得解脱呢？”桑沙恩说道。“谈论代际创伤？这就是其中的一部分。”
"If we don't know where these children are, how can we find closure for some of our families?" said Sunshine. "Talking about intergenerational trauma? That's part of it."