“你为什么不干脆开你的三轮车去工作呢？”法官在我法庭听证会上问道。此前，我的社交媒体账号上的视频被播放了出来。我在 TikTok 和 Facebook 上讨论了索马里的一些令我担忧的问题：首都摩加迪沙的强制驱逐行为、高昂的燃油价格，以及政府中的裙带关系。
hy don’t you just drive your tuk-tuk and do your work?” the judge asked me after videos from my social media accounts were shown during my court hearing. I had spoken on TikTok and Facebook about issues in Somalia that concerned me: forced evictions in the capital, Mogadishu, high fuel prices and nepotism in government.
我曾提到，在申请医院或政府部门的工作时，有三次被告知必须以性交易作为交换条件。
I had described how, when I applied for work in hospitals and government departments, I was told on three occasions that I’d have to give a sexual favour in return.
在索马里，女性没有参与社会活动或表达自己意见的权利；她们根本不受尊重。那些敢于发声的女性往往会遭到暴力对待，甚至会失踪。
In Somalia, women have no right to be part of society or to express themselves. They are not respected. Those who do dare to speak out are subjected to violence – or even disappeared.
两天前，我被两名警察绑架并强行关进了一辆车里。在警察局里，我被扇耳光，头部还被撞在墙上；我无法联系律师，也没有被正式起诉。
Two days earlier, I had been abducted by two police officers and forced into a vehicle. At the police station, I was slapped and my head was hit against a wall. I had no access to a lawyer and no formal charges were made.
法庭上，法官宣布我会被拘留等待调查结果。随后我被关进了摩加迪沙中央监狱。该监狱的女性监区关押着大约 120 名女性，我的牢房里只有 30 人。这座监狱建于殖民时期，至今从未进行过任何翻修；里面没有窗户、没有照明设施，气味极其难闻。唯一的厕所甚至连门都没有，根本没有任何隐私可言。
In court, the judge said I would be held in custody pending investigation. I was taken to Mogadishu Central prison. The female wing of the prison held about 120 women, and there were about 30 in my cell. The prison was built in colonial times and has never been renovated. There were no windows or lights, and there was a terrible smell. The only toilet had no door and there was no privacy.
第一晚实在难以忍受：我和一些属于“青年党”（al-Shabaab）这样的极端组织成员被关在一起，他们一直在谈论杀戮、爆炸事件以及针对知名人士的袭击计划。我吓得根本无法入睡。
The first night was horrible. I was imprisoned with members of [jihadist militant group] al-Shabaab and they were talking about killings, explosions and targeting well-known individuals. I was too afraid to sleep.
每天我们只能吃到一杯茶和一片发霉的面包作为早餐，大约三小时后才能得到半碗米饭。如果想出去晒晒太阳，就必须贿赂狱警。
Every day we’d get tea and one slice of stale bread for breakfast, and then half a plate of rice about three hours later. To go outside for sunshine, you had to bribe the guards.
许多女性都处于抑郁状态，还患有各种健康问题；我的皮肤出现了严重问题，体重急剧下降，月经也停止了。
A lot of the women were depressed and had health issues. I developed skin problems, lost a lot of weight and my period stopped.
随着时间的推移，我开始听到其他女性的故事。其中有一位女性在怀孕期间被关进了监狱；她的前夫据信是“青年党”（al-Shabaab）的成员，他们的共同银行账户中存在一些异常交易记录。在其他女性的帮助下，她在狱中生下了一个现在18个月大的女儿。这个事实让我感到心碎——那个婴儿根本没有任何过错，本应拥有一个更美好的生活。
As time went on, I started hearing other women’s stories. One woman had been imprisoned while pregnant. Her ex-husband was thought to be a member of al-Shabaab and their joint bank account was found to have some irregular payments. She gave birth to her now 18-month-old daughter inside her cell with the help of the other women. I found that heartbreaking – the baby hadn’t committed any crime and deserved a better life.
每次见到她，我都会想起自己被囚禁时还在哺乳的女儿。我和两名年龄分别为13岁和17岁的女孩被关在同一个牢房里。
Every time I saw her, I was reminded of my own daughter who I was breastfeeding when I was taken. I was incarcerated alongside two girls aged 13 and 17.
许多女性是因为欠债或未缴纳罚款而被关进监狱的；她们中的许多人根本无法聘请律师，也不清楚自己到底犯了什么罪，就被判了多年监禁。
Women were imprisoned for debt or for non-payment of fines. Many had no access to a lawyer and had been sentenced to years in prison without understanding what crime they had committed.
我发现，这些被关押的女性大多没有受过教育，还经常遭受剥削。于是我开始教她们一些读写知识。
I noticed that many of the imprisoned women had never received an education and had been exploited. I started teaching some of them how to read and write.
我设法在监狱里弄到了一部手机，并决定联系当地的广播电台。我接受这次采访，既是为了保护自己的安全，也是为了向外界揭露自己的处境。
I managed to get a phone in prison and decided to speak to a local radio station. I did the interview for my safety and protection, and to let people know about my situation.
采访内容刚播出一个小时，一群男人就来到了我的牢房，把我带到了一个用于实施酷刑和惩罚的房间。监狱长开始脱我的衣服、摘下我的头巾，还殴打我；我的双手被反绑在背后，他们让我趴在地上，然后往我身上泼水。房间里装有监控摄像头。
An hour after it was released, a group of men came to my cell and took me to a room used for torture and punishment. The prison commander started stripping me, removing my headscarf and dress, and beating me. My hands were tied behind my back, and they told me to crawl on my chest while they threw water on me. There were CCTV cameras in the room.
之后，我又接受了媒体的采访——这次是《卫报》（The Guardian）。我想通过这次采访表明：我不会屈服，这种惩罚也不会阻止我继续发声。无论他们如何折磨我，我都会继续站出来发声、揭露真相。
After that, I spoke to the media again – this time to the Guardian I wanted to show that I was not going to back down and that this punishment would not stop me from speaking out. Even if you torture me, I will continue to rise up and speak.
采访内容发表后，我收到了性骚扰的威胁；监狱方面还表示他们会将这段视频录下来并公之于众。
After that interview was published, I was threatened with rape. The prison authorities said they would record it and release the video.
有三名男子强行将我按倒在地，摘下了我的头巾，并对我实施了性侵犯。所有这些行为都被手机拍了下来。
Three men forced me to the floor and removed my headscarf. They sexually assaulted me. All this was recorded on a mobile phone.
最终，我获得了律师的帮助。在监狱里待了一个月后，我参加了第一次法庭听证会。在听证会上，检方出示了《卫报》上关于我遭受酷刑的报道，并指控我在传播反政府言论。那时我就意识到，这个事件已经引起了公众的广泛关注。
I eventually got access to a lawyer and, after a month in jail, I had the first of three court hearings. At court, the prosecution produced the Guardian article about me being tortured, alleging that I was spreading anti-government propaganda. I knew then that the story had hit a nerve.
6月25日，我被判定犯有侮辱政府机构的罪名，被判处三年监禁。这一判决对我来说犹如晴天霹雳——我浑身颤抖，视线也变得模糊不清。
On 25 June, I was convicted of insulting government institutions and sentenced to three years in prison It was like a shot to the head. I was shaking and my vision went blurry.
我的律师立即提出了上诉。同时，得知有人正在为我的自由而奔走，这给了我一线希望。8月12日，班达希尔地区的上诉法院撤销了我的原判和三年监禁的判决，我当天就被释放了。
My lawyer filed an appeal. That, along with the knowledge that people were campaigning for my freedom, gave me hope. On 12 August, the Banadir [region] court of appeal overturned my conviction and three-year prison sentence, leading to my release on the same day.
当我与女儿重逢时，她竟然没有认出我……她的遭遇比我遭受的还要糟糕得多。
When I reunited with my daughter, she did not recognise me. Her punishment was much worse than what I had been subjected to.
此后我不断收到威胁，还有人逼迫我停止发声。“青年党”的成员看到了我的案件经过，想让我加入他们的组织。出于对自身安全的担忧，我选择了离开这个国家。
I kept receiving threats and was being pressured to stop talking. Members of al-Shabaab had seen how my case had played out and wanted me to join them. I became scared for my safety, so I left the country.
如今，我正在努力从这段痛苦的经历中恢复过来。我需要心理健康的支持，因为那些在监狱里的回忆仍然时常萦绕在我心头。我正在写一本关于自己经历的书，并通过社交媒体为那些在监狱中遇到的女性发声——她们其实处于社会边缘，默默无闻；我希望能够帮助她们重获自由。
Now, I am recovering from my ordeal. I want to get mental health support because I still have flashbacks to my time in prison. I am writing a book about my experiences. And I am using my social media channels to advocate for some of the women I came across in prison. They are invisible – I want to help them get their freedom. As told to Sarah Johnson